Sunday, August 3, 2014

Half a year: An eternity


This week it will be 6 months since we said hello, and goodbye, to Olivia. 
Half a year.
My, how we've changed.

One part of me says, it's a day just like any other.
A day that I still don't have her.
I can't miss her any more on that day compared to all the other days without her. 

But in the same breath, my life seems to revolve around these anniversaries.

Such a milestone. 
Such an eternity. 

I can't believe we've made it 6 months.
I can't believe I've made it 6 months.

Life just isn't.
Isn't full enough.
Isn't happy enough.
Isn't good enough.

The only thing that is, is God.
He is fullness, happiness, and goodness.
He is enough.

Or, this is what I scream at my heart.
But my heart is human.
And it hurts.

It hurts so deeply. 

2 comments:

  1. My heart hurts for you. I list my girl 10 years 5 months and 4 days ago...still don't know how I feel...loving you today

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  2. I also hurt for you and Josh. This post is beautiful and so true. "Life just isn't." Yes, exactly. Love you sweet friend.

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